where i belong

it's so funny when i find myself resisting a change and then all of the sudden one day i wake up and it's just a matter of fact, "this part of my life is going to change now."  that is what happened with annie up.  i've loved everyone in the band and being able to perform with them, but that matter of factness set in last week.  i showed up to rehearsal on thursday and let them know it might be a good idea to start looking for someone new.  so here i am with my last month as an official member of the band, getting ready to set out again on my own once again.  i must say it's much like a break up.  exciting because the possibilties that lie ahead are endless but also scary because you're on your own...traveling through life as an individual. 

while playing in a cover band was INCREDIBLE performance experience, i think it's time i really start to figure out what i'm doing...what i have to offer.  the new keyboard player they found came to our gig last Saturday and kept asking me, "what are you going to do? what are you going to do? why are you quitting? what are you going to do?"  honestly, i can't answer that question yet, but i can tell you one thing and that is annie up is no longer where i belong.